I have been avoiding this post since last Saturday. What a difference a day makes. Friday's post explains something different than what I felt the next day. I hurt my back, again. Didn't feel it during the workout on Friday but Saturday morning my "sunshine" disappeared and a "black cloud" has been looming ever since. It is most likely a disc issue since I have had problems in the past. Pain is radiating from my lower left back to my front pelvic area. It has gotten better since Saturday but I am being impatient and down right depressed about the progress. I did NOT make a good decision on Friday. I should have been smarter about the amount of weight. I am not getting the concept that I am 45 years old and don't really need to impress anyone any more. I wrote in my post that I was thinking about doing the CrossFit games this year. What was I thinking? I remember a time pre-surgery when my priorities were to get a good night sleep and do some casual exercise. How soon we forget. I have put in a call to my PT and also had a friend who is a chiropractor come over and do my first ever adjustment. Didn't really work though.
I think it is time to reflect on what I really want out of this CrossFit stuff and life in general. I am tired of being hurt and sick (long term issues). I remember running into a colleague at the beginning of the year. I was talking with him how I abused myself over the summer and was now paying for it with pain and loss of mobility in my hip joint. I said to him, "I don't know why I keep doing this to myself", his reply "you wouldn't be you if you didn't". Well, I am tired of being me if it means being stupid and hurting myself. It's time for a change for the better, a better way of life, a more enjoyable life.
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